Moment of Blessings

Hi. It has been  a long time I didn't update my blog. Sorry for all the busyness and laziness and etc.. There's a lot of things I haven't updated yet haha. I'm not sure what to start, to many stories to tell. Well..to make long stories short, so many things had happened last year 2011. Last September was the starting of my 4th semester in UMS. I didn't stay at hostel anymore. I rented with my churchmates, Tracy, Vivianne, Yan, Joyce, and two of Tracy's coursemates, Lee Yong and Slyvia. I got the chance to mixed with different gang in the church haha and also different environment since I'm not staying at hostel anymore. Plus, my parents bought a new viva car for me to go to uni and doing things around KK. No more waiting at the UMS's bus stop for hours, save energy and time. I was blessed with all of it. 


New semester, new intake was coming. Crazy and tough time during preparation of Freshie Night: C.O.O.L Generation but it was worth it.I'm happy to meet all the juniors although IP Cell Group didn't get enough intake compare to other CG. All in all, the smaller group we have, the more we get to know each other :) For IP CG new intakes are Kimberly, Sima, and also Elvin. Plus, the degree holder from UiTM also joining IP CG like Susan, Patricia and also Deborah. The diploma holder from UiTM was formed into another new CG since there are more students coming in compare to the previous years. It  was good news to see the CG was multiplied :) 


Through out the whole half of 2011/2012, (September-January) there were sad and happy moments. I was blessed by Christmas Eve celebration and also New Year Night celebration. It was a blast. Since this was the first time UMS student didn't go back on Christmas, so the family members of CTK decided to do this two events, so that we didn't feel too much of "home sick" :)


Early year of 2012 promised a lot of meaningful memories. Just like the previous year, we started Alpha Course but this time we did it in CG. I was nervous when Lenny asked me to be the speaker during Alpha. Since, the previous years I became an intern I never did the sharing or became the speaker because it was always Lenny and Jeremy(another IP CG intern who already graduated last year) did the job haha :P I was complacent and in my comfort zone. The only thing I dare to do for CG was leading Praise & Worship haha. Though I was nervous, I took the challenge. It was time to learn new things and improved. I can't stop my nature of being worried but as I let myself lead by the Holy Spirit, it turned out to be so simple. The words just flowed out from my mouth. I realized that moment, it wasn't me who was in control. It was Him :)


During Alpha Course, The Holy Spirit Weekend, we did it at Praise Mountain which is not very far away from Kokol Prayer Centre. The 3rd day was amazing as all of us experienced God's touched. I was asked by Bro. Tim to lead Praise & Worship for morning session on the 3rd day. Nervous again haha. One week before Holy Spirit Weekend, I did fast and pray. I know this was the moment where the devil worked hard to stopped us. We were blessed by our speaker, Canon Arun Kuak. As we were ministered by the work of Holy Spirit, the rain started to pour out heavily. It felt as if the rain came down to wash and clean us all from the sins we did. I got the chance to pray for Joyce. I was touched when she asked me to pray for her. As I prayed for her, I can't stop myself from shaking and wept because of the power of HS. Both of us spook in tongue. After the prayer, we both hugged each other for quite some time. 


I'd joined KKR(Kongres Kebangunan Rohani) at Telupid and I brought Polly along. Maybe next time I'll write the experienced I gained from there because I wrote it inside my journal. One thing for sure, I was blessed by Hujan Berkat especially Polly because she confessed to me that she felt regretted didn't get to know the Lord deeper in the early days and never been to any events like this before . She also told me that it's kinda late for her to get to know the Lord but I encourage her it was not too late. God has His timing :) I felt so grateful to the Lord since it has been a long time praying about her. Every time I asked her to join our church's activities, she gave excuses. I pray that this is only one of the little step she took on the journey with the Lord.


I registered myself to join mission trip to Kg. Lingkabungan, Kota Marudu last two weeks. This is one of my biggest prayer items. I prayed for quite a long time about this. Actually it was first started when I joined English Youth Camp 2010 at Tawau. The speaker(can't remember who was the speaker that time) challenge us to step out from our comfort zone. I took a challenge and went in front. I wept like crazy. I know it was important decision in my life and I know how much I didn't want to leave my comfort zone. That moment, I was just obeyed the still small voice inside my heart. Without a second thought, my feet was making ways to the front.


Bishop Datuk Albert Voon challenged us to join Ambassador. Ambassador is a program for those who have just graduated from SPM or university to devote ourselves in one year training in order to expose us in the missions field and other ministries. Plus, free meal is given, a hostel and monthly allowance. The only thing that attracted me was the mission field. I continue to asked God is this the plan that He prepare for me. Not long after that, CTK organised a mission trip to Pitas, Kota Marudu. I thought this was another opportunity for me to be involved in mission trip but I felt sad that I can't join because it was on semester break and I was at Miri. That moment, I thought maybe God planned Ambassador for me. I continued to ask God.


To my surprised, during Leader Generation meeting, Rev. Timothy handed us the tentative of the whole year 2012 punya events and I almost screamed in excitement as I saw "mission trip to Pitas". Since then, I keep asking God to open the ways. Whether it is Ambassador or Mission Trip. I also share about this with Rev. I thank God that He has finally answered my prayer. He has open way to the Mission Trip. 


This time mission trip was different compared to the previous one. The first one was just an intro to the mission field. At least, there is a church.This new trip is where we go to the very remote areas, no churches was found, walking 7 hours to reach the village, the villagers were all pagans and each of the houses were separated very far away across the hills. Plus, we will going to be equipped as we also involved in ministries such as pray for people, cast out demons, healing and more. Hmmm.. Scary. It wasn't easy. Rev. Tim asked us to pray more in spiritual preparation because the spiritual battle. I know this the chance that God prepare for me. I can't turn back or else I will missed this time. Big time. Well, I was excited and at the same time nervous haha. I can't wait to see God's hand working in my life during this mission trip. I believe He has prepare something big for me :) 

Be With You (Selalu Menyembahmu) by Sendy Stepvina @ City Harvest Church

Tuhan inilah Hidupku

KAU KEKUATANKU

KU DATANG KEPADA-MU
KAU TERIMA DIRIKU
KAU SEGARKAN JIWAKU

TAK PERLU KUANDALKAN
KEKUATAN DIRIKU
S'BAB KAU SANGGUP
S'BAB KAU SANGGUP

REFF:
KAU KEKUATANKU, KAU PENGHIBURKU
KAU TEPATI SEMUA JANJI-MU
DI SETIAP LANGKAH AKU 'KAN BERSERAH
MEMB'RIKAN HIDUPKU BAGI-MU YESUS

BRIDGE:
KAU ADA DI SAAT KUPERLUKAN
SETIA SELALU SELAMANYA, S'LAMANYA

YESUS KEKUATANKU - True Worshippers

A Heart with Thanksgiving

My result for semester 2 was out yesterday. My heart was thumping faster as I opened the UMS portal. I told my heart that whatever my result is, I will always give thanks. And here I wanna say that I'm so blessed and thankful as my pointer shot up to kepala 3!

YEAHHH!!!!THANK YOU JESUS!!!

The feeling is like jumping high in the air & flyyy!!!!!!!!

God is good all the time! I remembered I once prayed that: Jesus, if the pointer 3.00 is more than enough for me. He gave more than I could ever asked for. A small tears ran down my face as I gave thanks to Him. I flashback all the hardships and difficulties I went through last sem. It was the toughest sem and I can't believe I went through it all. Assignments + Midterms + Final Exams + Viva + Thesis + my pelayanan. My biggest challenge was my thesis. All those crying, hurt, humiliation, tired, frustration, depression yada yada yada.. I say, IT WAS WORTH IT :) hahahahahaha I wanna laugh as hard as I could *more like evil laugh, a revenge to the hurt and the pain I'd been though* When I think back, I couldn't manage my time between my study, thesis and perlayanan if not because of prayers. Jesus makes it all possible. Thank You Jesus :)

Psalms 136: 1

Give thanks to the LORD, for He is good! His faithful love endures forever.

Fellowship with HOPE

Praise God for tonight's fellowship with Hope's Live group. It had been long time since I joined Ella and other Hope's members, back when I was in my freshmen year :) I enjoyed the time with them. Very inspiring message and words of encouragement from the Bible. One thing, I was so touched by the Holy Spirit when we prayed just now. I cried all the way.. His present was so strong and reminded me of Saviournet Trust Ministry at Miri. :) How I long for it.. Although I'm from Anglican Church, but I don't care which church I'm worshiping at. It is the eagerness of heart that seek God is important. The sharing for tonight was on Filemon 1: 1-3:

"Dari Paulus, seorang hukuman karena Kristus Yesus dan dari Timotius saudara kita, kepada Filemon yang kekasih, teman sekerja kami dan kepada Apfia saudara perempuan kita dan kepada Arkhipus, teman seperjuangan kita dan kepada jemmat di rumahmu:Kasih karunia dan damai sejahtera dari Allah, Bapa kita dan dari Tuhan Yesus Kristus menyertai kamu."

There are 5 for live (if I remembered it correctly): Nabi, Rasul, Penginjil, Gembala but i forgot the other one.. Anggap kita ini bekerja di sebuah syarikat Yesus sdn bhd dimana ada beberapa Jabatan atau unit didalamnya yang mempunyai tugasan yang berbeza: Jabatan Nabi, Jabatan Rasul, Jabatan Penginjil dan Jabatan Gembala.

Jabatan Nabi

-example: Nabi Musa, Nabi Nathan...

-Nabi ialah seseorang yang menjadi perantaraan atau orang tengah Tuhan dengan manusia. Di dalam Alkitab, dahulu, Tuhan berwahyu dengan Nabi dan Nabi akan menyampaikan wahyu Tuhan kepada umat Israel. Selain itu juga, Nabi juga sebagai utusan untuk menyedarkan umatnya. Contoh ialah apabila Nabi Nathan dihantar kepada Raja Daud untuk menyedarkan Raja Daud untuk bertaubat kerana dia telah berzina dan melanggar perintah Tuhan. Selain itu, Nabi ialah seseorang yang boleh mengintepretasikan atau menyatakan isi hati Tuhan. For me personally, this gift is wonderful. It's like the relationship between God is so close. The question is, how many of church members are "Nabi"?

Jabatan Rasul

-example: Rasul Paulus

- Jesus said, "Go and be the disciple of all nation."

-Rasul ialah seseorang yang menjaga/ nourish perjalanan spiritual gereja.

-dalam surat rasul Paulus kepada Corintus, Efisus dan sebagainya, dia selalu mendorong gereja-gereja di Corintus untuk tetap setia di dalam Tuhan. Dia tidak pernah mengabaikan tanggung jawabnya untuk terus setia mendorong mereka.

-example: cell leader dalam kelompok cell

-mereka inilah yang memantau perjalanan iman/ spiritual setiap ahli-ahli cell nya.

-ya, mereka sudah menerima Yesus dalam hidup mereka tetapi mereka juga perlu dibimbing dalam pertumbuhan iman mereka.

Jabatan Penginjilan

-Penginjil ialah seseorang yang pergi ke pelbagai tempat untuk membritakan Injil Kristus.

-Pengingjil bukan sahaja pergi menbritakan Injil tetapi setelah seseorang itu menerima injil Kristus, Penginjil perlu memastikan pertumbuhan rohani mereka sentiasa dijaga atau dibimbing walaupun penginjil tidak berada di suatu tempat itu lagi.

-example: apabila kita pergi ke suatu tempat dengan misi untuk membritakan Khabar Baik Yesus Kristus, jangan kita menbritakannya sahaja tetapi setelah kita meninggalkan tempat itu, kita perlu keep in touch dengan mereka yang baru sahaja menerima Khabar Baik itu agar iman mereka bertumbuh step by step.

Jabatan Gembala

-Gembala ialah seseorang yang mengajar tentang Firman Tuhan.

-example: Pastor, Reverence

-mereka bukan hanya berkhotbah tiap-tiap minggu tetapi mereka inilah yang melihat keperluan orang (see the needs of others)

-mereka juga seseorang yang amat concern akan pertumbuhan rohani dan iman gereja. after they see the needs of others, then they will try their best to help others.

-example: Rev. Timothy dari Greja Kristus Raja (Christ The King). Dalam Tahun Pernuaian Besar ini, CTK telah mengadakan pelbagai kursus perlengkapan (equipping seminar) seperti Healing Ministry dari Pastor Flora, Return to Wholeness oleh Rev. Kenneth Thien, Kebaktian Bahasa Cina buat pertama kalinya di CTK, (Kebaktian Kebangunan Rohani)KKR oleh Rev. Augustine Saang pada minggu depan buat pertama kalinya di CTK, Vocal class (March), kursus Alpha (Alpha Course) pada Mac, dan Healing Rally oleh Bill Z. di Tawau.

All in all, we're not just talking about spreading the Good News to the world but we really doing it and different gifts have different peranan on how to spread the Good News. This is what I learn at the fellowship. Now that I know how does it works. Praise God :)